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In Conclusion:
The only way to fight against an ever more alienated world is to live fully. Breathe in fresh air and live with commitment and devotion to what you believe in. The trouble so many of us have is in discovering what it is we really believe in. Is it security? An exciting job? Experiential experiences of travel and consumption? Is it love?
You must discover that for yourself along the way. But I will tell a little secret - it is the people that matter most of all.
All of everything in life affords us learning experiences, and in that regard nothing is a wasted experience. But I will maintain that I've made some mistakes.
This blog is not one of them, but it chronicles some of the moments I've experienced including some of those mistakes.
At this moment in my life I have the clearest mind I think I've ever had. There is a new and yet familiar world out there for me. Everything is about to change and yet revert back to a state of familiarity as though the world has rediscovered its genesis. As though I rediscovered my humanity.
In the years that I've written in this blog, I have noticed many changes in myself. I have a growing comfort in writing about uncomfortable things. I have found that I have made true connections in my life that challenged my beliefs about the kind of loneliness I would be destined to suffer through my life. I have found comfort in solitude. I have found comfort in friends. I have found ways to challenge myself, and so have my friends.
I want to take apart the over-used phrases that "life is a journey" and "it isn't the destination that matters, but the path you take to get there."
Living in the "now" and enjoying life as it is happening is good advice, but I think that it is often misunderstood. Life cannot be enjoyed unless you are moving toward something. Life is a creative act. To give life meaning, choices must be made. Not just choices, but commitments. Commitments have values based on how big the commitments are.
For instance, for someone trying to lose weight, each 20-minute workout session that is completed is an important commitment, however short-term is. But the question arises, why are you losing weight? If you're committed toward life-long health, then this small commitment is quite important and meaningful in a larger picture.
And this is the key. Commitments in life work with each other. Commitments, along with their actions, determines what has value more than words alone ever could.
So value is a matter of choice. Obsessing about cars makes cars valuable to you. Making sure to donate money to worth causes, makes those causes valuable. But only when done with conscious volition. If you accidentally or incidentally save someone's life, you aren't showing that you care for that person's life. Intention matters, but so does ineptitude.
Make sure you choose your values carefully, or they will choose you.
I've given a lot of thought to my values, and I feel no need to share them here in great detail. But I will say this: they are surprisingly simple and straight-forward. Life isn't actually all that complicated, even when it seems most to be.
I've given a lot of thought, and I've determined that this will be my last blog entry here. I have several reasons for this, and I will share them now:
1) My life has changed dramatically since starting this blog, and the general theme doesn't fit my views anymore.
2) I am at a crossroads for great change in my life now, and I'd like to start this new beginning properly with a new blog.
3) I'd like my next blog to be organized better and to have a better domain name.
4) I'd like to catalogue my future posts better and make them more searchable by type.
In my next blog, I want to write about love and beauty. I want to write more about connection. I want to write about the meaning of sexuality. I want to write more about family and what family means. I've grown tired of wandering the mazes of postmodernity and the holographic simulacra and simulations scintillating the terrain without finding that balance of humanity in my life. I'm ready to explore the idea of deserving to be with someone who can understand me, love me, and care for me. I'm ready for a new chapter.
If you want to know the address of my new blog, contact me. I will create it sometime in the next several weeks.
You must discover that for yourself along the way. But I will tell a little secret - it is the people that matter most of all.
All of everything in life affords us learning experiences, and in that regard nothing is a wasted experience. But I will maintain that I've made some mistakes.
This blog is not one of them, but it chronicles some of the moments I've experienced including some of those mistakes.
At this moment in my life I have the clearest mind I think I've ever had. There is a new and yet familiar world out there for me. Everything is about to change and yet revert back to a state of familiarity as though the world has rediscovered its genesis. As though I rediscovered my humanity.
In the years that I've written in this blog, I have noticed many changes in myself. I have a growing comfort in writing about uncomfortable things. I have found that I have made true connections in my life that challenged my beliefs about the kind of loneliness I would be destined to suffer through my life. I have found comfort in solitude. I have found comfort in friends. I have found ways to challenge myself, and so have my friends.
I want to take apart the over-used phrases that "life is a journey" and "it isn't the destination that matters, but the path you take to get there."
Living in the "now" and enjoying life as it is happening is good advice, but I think that it is often misunderstood. Life cannot be enjoyed unless you are moving toward something. Life is a creative act. To give life meaning, choices must be made. Not just choices, but commitments. Commitments have values based on how big the commitments are.
For instance, for someone trying to lose weight, each 20-minute workout session that is completed is an important commitment, however short-term is. But the question arises, why are you losing weight? If you're committed toward life-long health, then this small commitment is quite important and meaningful in a larger picture.
And this is the key. Commitments in life work with each other. Commitments, along with their actions, determines what has value more than words alone ever could.
So value is a matter of choice. Obsessing about cars makes cars valuable to you. Making sure to donate money to worth causes, makes those causes valuable. But only when done with conscious volition. If you accidentally or incidentally save someone's life, you aren't showing that you care for that person's life. Intention matters, but so does ineptitude.
Make sure you choose your values carefully, or they will choose you.
I've given a lot of thought to my values, and I feel no need to share them here in great detail. But I will say this: they are surprisingly simple and straight-forward. Life isn't actually all that complicated, even when it seems most to be.
I've given a lot of thought, and I've determined that this will be my last blog entry here. I have several reasons for this, and I will share them now:
1) My life has changed dramatically since starting this blog, and the general theme doesn't fit my views anymore.
2) I am at a crossroads for great change in my life now, and I'd like to start this new beginning properly with a new blog.
3) I'd like my next blog to be organized better and to have a better domain name.
4) I'd like to catalogue my future posts better and make them more searchable by type.
In my next blog, I want to write about love and beauty. I want to write more about connection. I want to write about the meaning of sexuality. I want to write more about family and what family means. I've grown tired of wandering the mazes of postmodernity and the holographic simulacra and simulations scintillating the terrain without finding that balance of humanity in my life. I'm ready to explore the idea of deserving to be with someone who can understand me, love me, and care for me. I'm ready for a new chapter.
If you want to know the address of my new blog, contact me. I will create it sometime in the next several weeks.
posted by Will at 1:55 AM
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