I struggle asking anything from other people. This is because of any combination of the following:

A. I don't like inconveniencing others.
B. I really don't want anything from others.
C. I don't think I can get what I want.
D. I'm not sure what I want.
E. I'm afraid of losing something that I have in to get something else I might want.
F. I'm afraid of getting what I want and then dealing with the responsibility of taking care of it.
G. I don't think I deserve it.
H. I don't think it is real.
I. I don't want to owe anybody anything.
J. I am depressed.
K. I don't trust the person I'd be asking.
L. It is too easy.
M. It takes too much effort.

If you know me, you may recognize several of these reasons here. It might help explain my default stance which leads toward long nights alone in my house. This is not a complaint... perhaps consider it more of an apology.