III

III.

Three truths.

1.

the world was not created in a week
nor is the earth six-thousand years old
irrefutable evidence shows us

dinosaurs really existed as we all know
I saw "The Land Before Time" in second grade
I had something in my eye and tears came out

everyone thought that I was crying
but in reality it was just something in my eye

and even so we think the world was created
several billions ago in firey melange
molten moments cooling and cracking to continents

but we're all fools for thinking the world
was created for us

the world is
we are in it

this creation is an illusion of misdirection

we just are

2.

never knowing why
is the only fact of life

I don't know why we live
in a feeling world
in an unexplained existence

I can't explain why
sunsets make me sad
or why I never look away

the way the night's air
awakens my skin when
the sky is clear

moments when ordinary things
seem magical

and times when I'm arrested
by such a feeling of pain
that each moment rips
deep into my very organs

a physiological horror

on a cold day my feet
will begin to feel numb

and on some days
I prefer to feel the numbness

but feel free
to show me warmth

3.

my narcissism is limited
to my affinity for loving
those suffering with my afflictions

I suffer the most
the more intimately
I experience others
afflictions

why not my own?

what emptiness breeds
this sort of despair?

I understand that my love
is my only connection
to believing that existence
is real outside myself

so bittersweet
these feelings

but you must know
I would never trade them
for anything
including peace of mind