familiar ground

1. that territory

women mark the territory
weather balloons bobbing
on the horizon's edge

the shackling smells
eye shadow reflections
and lost fathers

2. 1990

I remember fourth grade breasts
and that first spray
on my bare stomach

boys do things like that
to make it easier

time flies fast that way

we probably could have played
Nintendo together after school
and listened to MC Hammer

we could have watched the Simpsons
played silly card games
and catch lizards and frogs

I just remember wet dreams
learning the name for masturbation
distant smiles in the sun on recess
and a high

musical voice

adolescence is strange that way
getting accustomed to your cock
getting hard in your hand

somehow its always best
to have the biggest penis
after gym class in the locker room

I often sat in silence
listening to jokes
about fat and ugly girls

no one asked me
and I didn't think about it

3. repose

you can find love
but what is it?

territories are lost
in the mind

terrorists create
false roadmaps

you lose everything during adolescence

it cannot be found
only reconstructed

the distinction is everything