Last Friday, I learned that someone close to me has died. She was a student I had that I had a great relationship with and it meant a lot to me. She and her boyfriend ran a red light and we hit head on by a semi truck. They both died.

She was of my "top friends" on MySpace. When I sign in, and see her face there with my other friends, I am hit with this emotion that really makes it completely impossible to do anything to change my list. As if I can't delete her from my friends, or take her out of my top friends in some sort of token act of defiance, or respect for her life. Just because she has died, does that not mean she's a top friend any more?

This strange simulated world, and the simulacra in which we play it out in makes it hard to comprehend death, and to emotionally deal with it. But I've got my memories, and I am still quite sure that they are real. I am quite sure this is a real tragedy and I will carry on these memories with as much dignity and honor as I possibly can.

-with love and respect