freely associating (if that's allowed...?)

It does not take a rare individual to have difficulty in differentiating from things that are in the domain of the self, and things that are in the domain of the other. I am often struck wondering if the motivation for survival is truly the strongest aspiration of humankind, or if the need for meaning can supersede that motivation. Coping skills and coping techniques are different things. I think we need to investigate what "survival" actually is. A man was stabbed in the leg a few days ago and made it to his job interview on time (with blood-stained pants) before going to the hospital. The ecological realities of life are molecular now, filled with mechanisms that are not mechanical. I know too much about the tragedies of strangers shared in the news. Following white cars that are not well lit through snow flurries is like following a ghost through a house of mirrors.

I am uncertain if a desire to leave a mark on mankind interests me at all, compared to the larger problem of leaving a mark upon my self. The accusations that I am overrun by a large ego are underwritten in sloppy handwriting. I cannot, with any certainty, view myself in a unified light.

I try to view complaints as opportunities, which is a poor substitute for those who use complaints as an opportunity to make others feel guilty. I've accepted my guilt for everything long ago, which is the only allowance I've given myself that makes it possible to be a moral being.

The ease at which one may get stabbed in the leg is greatly under appreciated. Just as well as the ease at which one may inflict the injury directly upon their self.

After all, stabbing one's self in the leg does not even necessarily mean stabbing one's self in the leg. We live, strikingly enough, in a free society.